*shrugs* Life always throws curveballs at you when you least expect it *lol* It's amazing how you prepare yourself for certain events/situations/senarios and when it actually happens, you kinda feel unprepared and find it hard to handle all these freaky feelings *lol* Geez, i'm such a complicated woman!
This week is much better actually, i kinda got to sort out stuff and i'm alright *l* All i need to do is bloody focus!!! Focus on the good things.. away with the bad ;) *lmao* Hey i've come to the conclusion that if it comes to the crunch, as long as i love myself i would be alright ;) I just need to be very careful about thinking too much and making small things into a mountain *lol* Gotta solve one small problem at a time. No point stressing about solving the whole darn thing.
Also it's not worth giving that someone your time if that person does not reciprocate. Easier said than done tho *lol* I tend to be a little bit obsessive/compulsive and i tend to do first and think about it later *l* Bad .. bad move on my part ;) But hey? We learn from our mistakes =) No one's perfect! But i sure like to think that i am ;)
I also gotta learn how to pick my battles and challenges.. i don't want to play with fire and get burnt in the process *l* It might seem really exciting at the time but it's really dangerous *l* It's easy to get caught up in the excitement. But hell.. when the smoke clears and when the dust/ash settles, you're on your own *lol* It's you who has to clean up the mess and make sure that you're alright. Sometimes it's worth it, but most of the time it's not.
I was really upset and hurt when i found out that i wasn't invited to the hen's party. I don't really like the hen but i really hate being left out. Especially when i know that everyone was invited except me *lol* So i spent the whole Saturday by myself, which was good coz i got all the housework done. My house was sparkling *lol* I felt so darn house proud ;)
I actually had a ball, i turned the music up really loud and did all my housework. After finishing the housework, i showered and had a glass of wine. It felt good. Then i decided to rebel and i had two glasses of volka *lmao* It was fun, being all my myself and i totally let lose. Music blasting and i imagined myself being at a club and dancing to my heart's content. Hahaha, it's kinda sad that i have to resort to that but it was fun *lol*
I reckon that hen can bite my cute yellow arse ;p Hahaha.. evil thought.. if i'm invited to her wedding, i'd wear white and bloody upstage her!!! hahahahahahaha.. nah, i wouldn't do that.. i'm far too nice ;) But it was a nice thought *lmao* Naughty li! *smacks wrist*
Ahh well.. life's full of surprises.. just gotta be prepared for it ;) hehehehehe..
Ciao!
